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ugh.

Carla is an idiot.

Carla is an idiot who has listened to you bitch about self-centered delusional nonsense for hours on end. Carla is an idiot who has cried herself to sleep over you for years.

Carla is an idiot who is fucking tired.

Sometimes people are hypocritical. Most people have been at one point or another. I'm sorry that I am like most people. I know that's a problem for you. But you're like most people. You're a hypocrite in your own right, and trying to pretend you're a humanist who wants to help people is repulsive when you can't handle the challenges we all bring. Who the hell do you expect to handle your crazy ass when you can't handle a human moment of mine? When you can't take that I hurt like anybody else, like you (sorry I can't hurt as much as you, but it still hurts nonetheless) and that sometimes even I'm not strong enough?

But I am not a shell. So fuck you.

You're so self-absorbed it's impressive. How can you honestly relate everything back to yourself? How did you make my suffering an offense?

No one ever told you the truth because they were all too afraid you couldn't handle it. But now everyone has dwindled down to Isabella and I don't give a fuck. You should know that you of all people have no right to call anyone an idiot. You have no right to throw a single stone.


Even if people did break you, you're broken and you refuse to be fixed.

bdfkjg

astrid
I hate when I open my mouth.

Jun. 10th, 2009

I feel like this lady:



I look like the shit.


Ice-cream is good.
lucy
Tonight I’ll Sing

Tonight I’ll sing a song to the small bird
Who’s perched above my window late at night,
And listens to the tears that are absurd
Of a heart’s battle in the late fight.
And tonight I will be so very pleased
When sleep envelopes my dull envy eyes,
And my soul will most truly be appeased
To drink the beauty that tells precious lies.
Tonight I’ll sing a song and hope it leaves,
Fly into the air like the bird in fright;
The strange truth that these lies tend to let weave
I’ll throw your face out and away from sight.
Tonight I’ll sing the song you’ll never hear
Yet know your smile haunts me with that fear.

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For once in my life...

lucy
For once I had some direction. I had something. Now I have nothing.

I don't know how I manage to fuck everything up. I don't know why I'm so stupid. Why I can't do simple math. I don't know. I don't know anything anymore.

Not that I ever did.

The Bending and the Breaking

evie
You can continue to bend. I'm breaking.

Maybe goodbye isn't such a bad thing after all.



Oh and a word of advice: gratitude is often given when it's received.


"cute" faces and mindless, unintelligible word vomit does not suffice.

Pavement

astrid
The creaking of the summer heat
the hard cracks beneath your fading feet
a jungle of splinters and bones
where every street is haunted home.
But here you find something hard
something tough to swallow
(as you found it dormant in your throat);
here you find the truth-
out above the rubble,
pounding down the roads
glaring back against the sun;
nothing is for shadows
that hasn't seen the light
nothing lost in the
Tall City Grass.

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Anger by Linda Pastan

joel
You tell me
that it's all right
to let it out of its cage,
though it may claw someone,
even bite.
You say that letting it out
may tame it somehow.
But loose it may
turn on me, maul
my face, draw blood.
Ah, you think you know so much,
you whose anger is a pet dog,
its canines dull with disuse.
But mine is a rabid thing,
sharpening its teeth
on my very bones,
and I will never let it go.


I'm sorry stinkles <3

labiaaas

bla bla blashua (9:34:18 PM): Never again will I have to deal with her ugly little vagina
howtodisappearx (9:34:34 PM): Never again will I have to deal with his ugly little bbydiqs
bla bla blashua (9:34:54 PM): Okay
bla bla blashua (9:35:02 PM): you want to talk about genitalia cuntabella?
bla bla blashua (9:35:09 PM): How about your fucking goofy ass labias?
bla bla blashua (9:35:35 PM): you manage to fuck everything up
bla bla blashua (9:35:37 PM): even your cunt

ANAL GUESSING

bla bla blashua (9:30:43 PM): WHEN YOU FUCKING LEARN TO SPELL ISABELLA
bla bla blashua (9:30:46 PM): THEN WE'LL TALK
bla bla blashua (9:30:53 PM): I DON'T KNOW WHAT ANAL GUESSING YOU'RE DOING
bla bla blashua (9:31:04 PM): BUT I DON'T FUCKING PLAY EASY BARBIE DOLL GAMES
bla bla blashua (9:31:09 PM): WHERE I JUST PUT ON WHATEVER AND I'M READY
bla bla blashua (9:31:20 PM): I DON'T HAVE TIME TO LOOK LIKE SOME RAINBOW BRIGHT LESBIAN EVERDAY